I feel like such a weirdo sometimes

One of the most disappointing things that can happen to me on an everyday basis is running into someone on the bus or the train that I am acquainted with, but not really friends with. Because what do you do? I have no interest in having a conversation with them, because it would be nothing more than small talk, which I find awkward and tiresome. And maybe they don’t want to talk to me, either. But I feel weird just saying “hello” and continuing on my way. But more often that not, that’s what I do. I semi-frequently see people from work on the bus. I don’t work directly with these people. I know their names, but that’s about it. I don’t want to spend my bus ride having forced, boring conversations. I want to listen to my iPod, read my book, or stare off into space thinking deep thoughts.

I’m not always an anti-social curmudgeon. If I run into someone I really LIKE or know well, I am more than happy to talk to them. I just feel bad when I don’t stop and talk to someone, because I don’t have anything to talk about. But I don’t feel bad enough to change my ways, I guess.

I feel like such a weirdo sometimes